What I believe….

1. We are the product of what we believe

2. Lagu Gersang (Hit song 1988) kata… janganlah ku disalahkan terjadinya ….. itu suratan takdir…. Heh he… this is one of my several favorite songs… And I still remember some nostalgic moments listening to this song driving in the blizzard going through Chicago to Toledo, Ohio a long time ago. I was still single at that time, off course. Now I think I have lost the skill driving in the snow and blizzard…. Not sure if I can still do it if I perhaps arrive there again. I went there to see my beloved brother Jaquin Ismail and family. He is surely in his 50’s now… Not my blood brother… but I love him so much; unfortunately something happened in the course of our relationship in the early 90’s that forced me to forget him temporarily. He offered to make up but I was afraid to accept because of something that forced me to ignore him. However, after they left the States to go back to Sabah. I have been looking for them ever since but I don’t know how to contact them anymore. If there is anybody that perhaps knows them would you please let me know? His wife’s name is Nooraini Nooriman, if I’m not mistaken she said her father was an immigration or custom officer in Kota Kinabalu. And this Jaquin is a custom officer somewhere in KK. He said that he is a relative to Datuk Pairin Kitingan. He also said that he is a relative to this one George Mijin …… And I remember his son, Yon or Yuyun, as we called him… Me says…. Janganlah takdir disalahkan terjadinya… itu semua salah engkau… he… he.. he… aku percaya dengan qada’ dan qadar tetapi aku percaya semua takdir masih boleh diubah… yg tidak boleh diubah hanyalah qada’ akhbar/mubram.. iaitu mati… kematian itu adalah sesuatu yg pasti… semua yg hidup akan mati… tetapi aku percaya waktu/timing mati itu masih boleh diubah dengan izin Allah Ta’ala… Riwayat At-Termizi, Nabi s.a.w bersabda, ‘Tiada yang boleh menolak takdir selain doa dan tiada yang boleh memanjangkan umur kecuali perbuatan yang baik.’ With that said… you are free to choose what you want to become… nak jadi kaldai ke.. nak jadi lembu ke… or nak jadi manusia… manusia yg berjaya atau pun manusia yang gagal. Kita wajib berUsaha and selepas itu bertawakkal dan memohon kehadrat Illahi untuk menqabulkan hajat kita…. Dan seandainya apa yg dihajati tidak ditunaikan Allah maka akan ada hikmah disebaliknya… Dan yg ini aku memang percaya sangat2 kerana pengalaman2 aku….

3. Where there is a will there is a way…

4. If you truly believe it is yours just let it go…. If it is meant to be, it will come back to you… If not just let it go… Errr… I did this in my relationship with the One and ONLY… almost ‘got a heart attack’ because of it… Because of some life experience I came up with this conclusion…. Tiada guna memaksa orang menyayangi kita sekiranya it is not from the heart…. So I tested…